bailea's MindSay Blog

some people suck ass!!

baileanorton — 2005-06-15T08:06:47-05:00

ya know some people are just the biggest asses!!! i freakin hate cliques!!!!! alright let me invite you in my school for a sec. alright you have your preps, jocks, nerds, rich people, hoes, normal people who dont give a shit,and the golthic people. im one of the normal people who dont give a shit. okay for some reason everyone just skips the nerds and come after the people who dont give a shit.i think people try to make me and my friends mad. like i said we dont give a shit. i dont give a flying fuck about rumors, honestly i think there funny because people get so far from the truth.

im breaking out in hives and i've got a fever so i'll write more later

frustration

baileanorton — 2005-06-16T12:06:24-05:00

i need to study!!!! i have to pass the freaking air force acadamy test to get into the acadamy. im so glad that it doesnt cost anything to get in or for like a dorm or something. im really anxious to get away from home. i mean its not that bad here or anything like that its just i want to see what it is like to be on my own. everyone is trying to persuade me into staying here. but there is absolutly nothing keeping me here. i mean being on your own cant be that bad. im sure it gets lonely though.im just so fed up with people telling me that i'll never be anything, i'll never go anywhere,, and that i'll be stuck here forever. to hell with those people because i want to do this and they cant stop me.hahahahaha

well anyways my grandmother is still in kuwait working for the goverment. she sent me a letter not to long ago telling me how wierd it is for her. she cant tell anyone what she is doing there. theres no telling. i think it would be cool to be kuwait. shes crazy but thats my family for ya.

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baileanorton — 2005-06-16T07:06:11-05:00

a few things about me

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name:bailea alyse norton

age:14

birthday:5/18/90

hair color: red

eye color:blue-green

weight:126

height: i have no idea but i think somewhere around 5'7

favortie animal: dogs!!!

marital: single

likes:msn messenger, shakesphere, air force

dislikes:people that act like they know what there talking about but really dont

perfect guy: a guy that knows what he wants, a good personality, & isent afraid of telling someone what he thinks.

favorite hair color: dark brown-black

favorite eye color: deep blue or brown

shit that bares repeating

baileanorton — 2005-06-17T02:06:12-05:00

well anyways, madison's dad came in to see his new baby girl and kerri last night and at first he was like aWW she so cute , and then the asshole whiped out a faturnitity test and was expecting her to take it. she was like hell no. the funny part is he drove 5 hours and spent 257.00 on the faturnitity test!

hahaha-fucker

well im still waiting on an email from the air force acadamy and everything. i mean i really want to take that test.they sent me some info about the acadamy and a cd to look at on the computer, and i did. im sure they are checking out my acadamic scores and all, which isent bad or anything i mean i make good grades, but i wish they'd hurry up. b/c not that many people are pounding at their doors wanting to go to their school.

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baileanorton — 2005-06-18T04:06:41-05:00

well i figured out where im going on vacation. i think im going to go to gulf shores. i really want to go see my g-pa im new mexico but im not going to get to. i really wanna go to cozumel again this year but im not gonna get to do that either because i dunno.

anyways there is like absolutly nothing to do right now. no one is online. my head is hurting so bad. im watching an indiana jones movie. . well i think im gonna go take some tylonal and go to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! l8er

the best lyrics in the world-by linkin park

baileanorton — 2005-06-18T08:06:42-05:00

there are just to many times people have tried to look inside of me wondering what i think of you and i proctect you out of curtousy. to many times that i held on when i needed to push away afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what i need to say. to many things you've said about me when im not around u think having the upper hand means you've gotta keep puting me down. but i've had to many stand offs with you its about as much as i can stand so im waiting untill the upper hand is mine.

one minute ur on top next ur not watch it drop making your heart stop just before you hit the floor. one minute ur one top next your not missed your shot , making your heart stop. you think you've won and then its gone.

so many people like me put so much trust in ur lies. so concered on what you think to just say what we feel inside. so many people like me walk on eggshells all day long, all i know is that all i want is to feel like im not stepped on!

what the hell!

baileanorton — 2005-06-19T01:06:23-05:00

why do i have to be so freaking uncool because i dont want to get loaded and act like an asshole. excuse me for not going an getting drunk on the weekends! personally i think drinking is for people that dont know who they are. its a stupid waste of time in my perspective. if you get drunk you turn into an asshole and you say things that you dont mean. its not that great! you get a hang over and throw up! if anyone disagrees with me please correct me! i would rather be a damn nerd than give my whole weekend having a hang over!

well today...

baileanorton — 2005-06-22T03:06:30-05:00

i started writting a book today. im really proud of myslef. not of being a nerd but you know what i mean.its mostly about what life is like being a teenager. believe me it sucks.

well i went to the pool today and read the da-vinci code.i couldnt really get into it so i read another book its called English as a Second Laguage. okay okay okay i know that im a nerd but w/e it doesnt matter i guess. hey if you dont like it stop reading!!! haha. :p

so its 2:03 in the morning and i have absolutly nothing to do exept write a chapter in my book or sleep. i think im going to sleep....nighty night.

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baileanorton — 2005-06-23T11:06:31-05:00

hahahahahaha there is a girl on this show "date my mom" and her name is angel princess. hahaha you can tell she named herself.hahaha.....

what i want

baileanorton — 2005-06-26T02:06:21-05:00

what i want is.....
i want to get away. i want a shoulder to cry on. i want someone who understands me perfectly. i want love. i want passion.
is any of this possible?, highly unlikely but if it was then it everything i want in one person would be in like four different people. ahh thats life i guess.... i guess its not possible, but its my dream....shut up! hahaha

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baileanorton — 2005-06-27T01:06:54-05:00

name:Bailea Alyse Norton
birthdate: 5/18/91
birthplace: sulfur springs
current location: paris texas
eye color: blueish green
hair color: strawberry blonde
height: like 5'6 or something
right or leaf handed: both
heritage:irish
weakness:inteligent guys
fear: SPIDERS!!!
single or group dates:single
last date:valentines day
favorite eye color: deep blue or brown
favorite hair color:brownish black
do you want to get married: no shit sherlock...
number of kids you want to have: umm i dunno
regrets:i have a couple but none that are worth mentioning

wha????

baileanorton — 2005-06-27T02:06:56-05:00

well okay... why is everyone bitching about the whole war issue? do you not realize that the troops are over there to prevent another 9/11 disaster. if you hate living in the usa then get out damn it....most of you disagree with me because your friends do.....think for yourself for once. you have the right to your own opinion and i have the right to think that your stupid. my family is in iraq fighting for you people, even the people that disagree with it...i dont care if you disagree with me, but the least you could do is show some respect for them.

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baileanorton — 2005-06-29T10:06:29-05:00

so im still sick. i think im gonna to the air show in oklahoma with my aunt this weekend. its gonna be awesome if i even get to go...i have to get rid of my cold and all.
well last night i was talking to leah on the internet, and i told her all of the stuff that i had built up. i probley shouldnt have said anything. its nice to have someone to talk to about all that stuff.i told her about being me being ignored and not being heard. stuff like that just gets me so aggrevated with myself. its probley all my fault that im ignored and not heard. i mean i think that it would be hard to not hear me because i am very opinionated and loud.haha but i am, in my perspective.mabey its just me...i dunno

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baileanorton — 2005-06-30T12:06:28-05:00

why is it so hard for people to understand where i am comming from. i think that the world would be a more awesome place if people just knew when to leave me alone and when to talk to me. i mean everyone would be happy if people had that type of knowledge, unfortunatly they dont. well i was at my house watching a movie and my friend was online talking on msn. these girls started giving her a hard time about something, at first i thought that it was just a misunderstanding but it wasent because they kept on and kept on. so i had to get an attitude, which didnt help. so finally i gave up and said jesus loves you and i love you because you are so clueless. but i forgive you. they still dont get the point but w/e their concited jerks and always will be but---i forgive them

love...

baileanorton — 2005-06-30T12:06:22-05:00

i think im in love. im not sure if he loves me back. i want to tell him everything, but im not sure if it will come out right. i love talking to him, he is amazing. im tired of waiting. love is so complicated. i think he is the one. :)

just be silent

baileanorton — 2005-07-01T01:07:17-05:00

the tears are rolling down my cheaks. i dont think i can handle this anymore. it has been four long years of nothing but waiting. this depression has overcome my life. its so hard for me to get through this by myself. no one cares, i feel so alone.the silence is breaking my heart. i have gone through this for so long i dont even remember who the real me is. but then you come along and you can see through all the hurt into the real me. its so amazing, i want to be with you.

um...rar

baileanorton — 2005-07-01T11:07:20-05:00

welp....im not going to write on here for a few days....road trip! call cellular device....I\\//Yall

painfull memories

baileanorton — 2005-07-05T01:07:16-05:00

okay i think i have set a record of how many panic attacks a person can have within a 76 hour extent of time. i was in oklahoma at my friends house and they have so many pit bulls its just retarded. his biggest dog Spider jumps right on me and knocks me into the pool. i got out and had a panic attack. so i get over that one. then that night we were outside shooting firecracker and he lit one when i wasent looking and that thing exploded like 5 inches away from my ass. then i had a panic attack. okay i went to sleep and my friend made a bra on me out of wipped cream....i woke up and Spider was trying to lick it off ( haha retarded dog). i then had a panic attack. after i had gotten him back for puting wipped cream all over my chest, he threw one of those firecrackers that are like really loud at me, and i just barely missed it. for a second it didnt go off after the fuse was gone and i was like thats a dud. then it exploded. i then had yet another panic attack. i had like four more but im not gonna go into detail.
i cant freaking wait untill i get my own place!!!! grr,. everyone thinks that just because im not doing anything, that i want to come over to their house and do crap for them.....okay i dont want to clean your house, water your plants, paint your garage, or any other the other crap that you people want me to do! its summer and i like doing nothing.
anyway.... my head hurts so im going to sleep zzzzzzzz? why do people put that? no one goes zzzzzzzz when they are sleeping. they drool and snore and fart....haha i dunno about that farting.....

Brain Fart

baileanorton — 2005-07-06T07:07:25-05:00

well shelby is here and we are so freaking retarded...its just retarded.she tried to tell me to shut up and she set the new longest spitting record. haha.we are sitting here making barn yard animal sounds......lol. like i said we are retarded! i think we are about to have a burbing contest. i will defantly win! lol.
we went swimming today and everything..it wasent really that great because i was kinda babysitting....JOY!!!! well i cant really think of anything else because i have brain farts very often!!!!

hurm....

baileanorton — 2005-07-07T02:07:33-05:00

welp its like 1:06 and im at shelbys house......i have like the biggest headache!!! i have taken tylonal so much that it doesnt really do anything anymore. i still have a flipping cold. it has lasted for like three months.
anyways me and shelby have a stupid song stuck in our head...its the most retarded song that i have ever heard. i hate it when that happens.
i think we are about to go to wallmart because there is absolutely nothing to do...and in paris wallmart is the biggest store so...alot of walking space..lol
i need food.....byebye apple pie.

ya know...screw you!

baileanorton — 2005-07-08T12:07:32-05:00

i am so damn tired of waiting on people. someone tells me that they like me , then i dont hear from them again...that pisses me off. if you dont want to talk to me then have guts to tell me, i can take it. i have thought about this alot. i have risked so much and you dont even care. thats fine though. i am so stupid to actually think that you were a nice person, forgive me for that.

in love!

baileanorton — 2005-07-09T08:07:02-05:00

i am officaly not single anymore. okay okay okay...his name is jason, 16, and amazing. well he asked me out last night and i said alright. we are going to the movies next weekend. he just got a motorcylce for his birthday...he didnt get a car because he got a ticket so he cant get a car untill he is 18. that sucks....

passing the time

baileanorton — 2005-07-11T01:07:40-05:00

im bout to go to the orthidontist....joy! i havent been in since like may. its gonna be painfull, but oh well i dont have anything better to do.lol.
well im supposed to go out with jasen next weekend, but i dunno if i can because my parents are like no he is 16. SO WHAT!! why does age matter, its not like he is 60 or something. w/e.... i was talking to him last night on the phone and he was like lets do something random...i was like what? he goes lets elope...hahaha, im not gonna go get married. i would be the only married person at my school besides the teachers....lol

um..yeah

baileanorton — 2005-07-18T10:07:17-05:00

well i think i am going to move out.and i probbley will as soon as i can find somewhere to go.i just need to get as far away from here as i can or im gonna get put in a nutt house.

hey

baileanorton — 2005-07-27T02:07:52-05:00

well..theres like nothing to do.like always. well i think im gonna go do something this weekend but i dunno what...any suggestions?(or however you spell it.) my head hurts. theres a freaking horrible song playing and its gonna be stuck in my head for the rest of the week. i have no idea who sings it but if i did i would beat them over their head with a pipe.
anyways i dumped jasen and hes all mad about it. i told him that i would still be his friend.he told me that he wouldnt be my friend unless i went out with him. i was thinking to myself YAY! i dont wanna be your friend because your breath smells like ass, your not my type, and ur stupid little sister gets on my last nerve. but i didnt say that because i have learned to keep some stuff to myself.
im so tired! i've slept for like 13 hours and im still tired for some reason. im weird.

well..dang

baileanorton — 2005-07-27T07:07:42-05:00

i went to wall mart a little while ago. i felt like shit. that meant i was going to see every damn person i know, and they are all gonna want to stop and talk to me. i had a splitting headache and i had to go to wallmart because we had no motrin, and im kinda sick, and have been kinda sick for a while. so while i was trying to get out of there in under 20 minutes i saw about 15 people that i knew. they all asked me how i was doing and i wanted to say shitty but i will be doing much better after i get out of here so shut the hell up! but i didnt......i said good. then they want to talk about the house that we are building. which that conversation is bound to take like 5 minutes which screwed up my plan of getting out of there in under 20 minutes..it took me about 45 minutes to get out of there. well..gaw
im still having problems with Jasen. he says that he doesnt want to talk to me but he calls me 24/7. everytime he calls he goes WHATCHADOIN when i answer the phone.he calls me every five seconds. heres the whole conversation;
him- hey whatcha doin?
me-the same thing i was doing the last time you called..nothing
him-are you mad at me?
me-not really, i just dont want to talk
him- THEN WHY DID YOU BREAK UP WITH ME?
me-because i dont want to go out with you anymore...
him-WHY?
me-because you get on my nerves!.....

i stole this from Kevin's blog thingy....

baileanorton — 2005-07-28T02:07:49-05:00

1. ONE WISH?
i dunno...im not picky i dont guess
2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
thats a tough one...it depends on who it is
3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
spiders!
4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
no not really
5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?
its kinda not as real as people think...
6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
haha...no, dont think so
7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
how do you tell? all babys look alike!
8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?
HELL NO!!! i freaking hate blind dates...
9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
black...thats a stupid question
10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
no...haha...it would be funny if i did though.
11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
no
12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?
dancing? not really secret but okay
13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
El Cozumelino, Cozumel Mexico
14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY?
i dont watch Jay Leno
15. CAN YOU SWIM?
yes
16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?
no
17. DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?
not really
18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP?
how the hell would i know?
19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
no...my brain barely works forward
20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
yes...a bunch of times
21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
nope
22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS?
electric...
23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
hunting animals or the remote?
24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
yup...sometime or another
25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
sure
26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
latex powder, pollen, and a bunch of other stuff that im not going to say
27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE U"?
when i was going out with jasen
28. IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?
nope
29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
?....nope
30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
i dont like em!
31. ARE BLONDES DUMB?
haha YEAH!
32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?
behind the drier
33. WHAT TIME IS IT?
12:59
34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
yeah...dumbass...haha
35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
i dunno
36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
yesturday
37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
showers
38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?
?i dunno?
39. DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?
haha it depends who it is! but if i like him...SURE
40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
not really
41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
um.....making out?
42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
crunchy...
43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
yup...sounds nasty but yup
44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
nope
45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?
once or twice
47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
i would be if i didnt have a brother
48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
blueish green
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
yep
51. LIQUOR OR BEER?
neither....
52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC?
noooo
53. HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?
nope..what the hell is that/
54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
guitar & drums
55. HAVE U EVER STOLEN MONEY?
nope, i've got my own
56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?
dude im from TeXaS...
57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?
i dunno i've never been
58. DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?
no haha
59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
not so much
60. ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?
yeah...i have a cocker spainel haha
61. YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?
i dunno...i've never been in that situation
62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?
hahahaha! HELL YEAH!
63. DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES?
not really. i dont have a chance to.
64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY?
like i said im from TEXAS
65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
gram crackers? i think
66. DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH?
on my toes..not my fingers
67. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN KISSED?
yeah....
68. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING COMMERCIAL?
all the freaking birthcontrol pill commercials
69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?
no its not my style
70. DO YOU SNORE?
i dont know..im not awake
71. FAVORITE SONGS AT THE MOMENT?
back in black-ACDC

whoa..i really didnt mean for that to happen!

baileanorton — 2005-07-30T06:07:26-05:00

last night was the worst night of my life. i was on msn talking and then i got off to try to sleep. my exboyfriend guessed my password and was talking to my friend on my msn. well i couldnt sleep so i got back online and when i did there was bitch written on everything, and my friend told me that he had been on there saying stuff about me like i was a liar and a bitch. he ( my friend) sent me the conversation. he was taking up for me which people dont normally do, and i appreciate that alot. behind the tears and frustration it put a smile on my face to know that someone cares.

hello again

baileanorton — 2005-08-08T04:08:44-05:00

welp i just got back from Surfside. it was alot of fun but i had soemone on my mind the WHOLE time i was there. i'll bet you can guess who. yawn. i still feel bad about the whole ex boyfriend thing. im just really reallyu tired of his crap/.

yep!

baileanorton — 2005-08-08T06:08:49-05:00

sorry bout that...my computer was being funky...anyway. well my ex boyfriend called me while i was in Surfside. im just getting to the point where i cant stand to hear his voice. i think i loose brain cells when i talk to him because he is like really really s l o w, and lord knows i need all of my brain cells. im going to dallas this weekend for school crap. Anna and Leah are gonna go with me. that will be fun...a bunch of stupid girls in a car for two hours. oh yeah we're gonna party!!!! im glad that im gonna get to have some fun this weekend because i need to stop thinking about my exboyfriend(jasen). gaw! i really dont like him. i went out with him for less than two weeks and hes gonna act like we went out for like a year. i dont get why he got on my msn and did all that crap and griped at my friends.

Relationships.....

baileanorton — 2005-08-09T01:08:17-05:00

Are you straight, gay, or bisexual?: straight How many people have you kissed in your life? 6 people...imma loser! Have you ever made out with a member of the same sex?: no How many sexual partners have you had?: none How many people have you dated this past year?: 3 people Where are your favorite places to be kissed?: hurm i dunno... Do you kiss on the first date?: if he doesnt get on my nurves then SURE Do you keep your eyes open when you kiss?: no Do you think you've met the person you'll spend the rest of your life with?: unsure Have you ever regretted a relationship?: oh yeah! Would you date or marry someone if your parents or friends didn't accept them? yes Would you kiss someone if you didn't love them?: no i wouldnt wanna lead them on Are you always horny?: nope What is your kissing pet peeve?: when they slobber!! eww Have you ever cheated on someone?: no Have you ever been cheated on?: yes What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?: nothing no one does anything romantic for me Biggest Turn-ons: gee i dunno Turn-offs: slobber & a rude person

oops i forgot again.

baileanorton — 2005-08-10T06:08:56-05:00

i think i had an orthidontist appointment today but i forgot. im glad i forgot. on to other news.. welp tomarrow i have to go up to school and get my schedual thingy. im supposed to go meet my teachers and everything but i think im just gonna blow that off because i know that all teachers hate me so theres no point in trying to act all sweet and innosent because im not really. Leah, Anna, and me are going to Dallas for school clothes. its gonna be fun....me and leah act so stupid togather so it has to be fun. they were going to make us wear uniforms at school but they decided that we didnt have which is a good thing because then all of the students would be in alternitive ed. why is everyone wanting boyfriends? i mean really.one of leahs friends would throw away their friendship just to get a boyfriend. most girls think that if they are slutty enough then they will get a boyfriend but i dont think that guys want a slutty girlfriend. am i right?

gaaaw...

baileanorton — 2005-08-14T08:08:13-05:00

i gotta go to school tomarrow and i really dont wanna.i have to get my scheldual chaged because i got a flippin p.e. class and i already have two p.e. credits and thats all i have to have so im not going to do more than i have to! and because the coach hates me and i dont wanna have to deal with his crap. well im gonna go get some chinesse food.

another day...

baileanorton — 2005-08-16T10:08:44-05:00

well i started school today. it was so boring. all the teachers treat you like your stupid. so its like BlaH,BlaH,BlaH, shes talkin to me like im DuMb!lol(taylor knows what im saying)!!! i got a new house and we're moving in on Monday. im really tired of being in a rent house so im glad. but before we can move in we have to take all of the ugly wallpaper down because my mother and i get thrown into Evironmental Overstemuli by it and it drives us crazy!!!i hate wallpaper. its paper for a wall. thats why they invented paint. to make it all one color and not like someone had stuck a giant post it on the walls. i think it makes the house look cheap, and its not its really nice. o0 LalA!!:P

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baileanorton — 2005-08-18T08:08:32-05:00

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baileanorton — 2005-08-20T12:08:34-05:00

well i am at my friend Shelby's house and we are acting stupid like normal...im so glad that it is friday because if i had to go to school one more day i think i would shoot myself in the foot. better yet..someone else in the foot. :D
well theres like a few people that like me this year or atleast thats what i think....its like a sixth sence.....but i hate flirting because im not really good at it.i dunno why it was invented. prolly by someone that was really bored with them self. well i have had to fix/make about 6 xanga sites this week for people that i wouldnt consider my friends. its like the prepy/posers just wanna talk to me when they need or want something. i wish i wasent such a nerd because then those types of people and people that get on my ever loving nerves, wouldnt talk to me so much!
so there is i a lot of drama in my school this year. GEE i wonder why? hurm.....lets think. prolly because the girl are rude and slutty and brainless! im sorry but they are. i mean most girls will do ANYTHING for a boyfriend. and it shouldnt be like that because ...because... it just shouldnt! i mean if a decent guy came up to one of those girls and he said i'll go out with you if you eat a pile of dog turds....she would be like YEAH totally....i dont think thats right for either gender, really. if a guy likes a girl and a girl like a guy i think that the guy should go for it. well i dunno...i think it should just happen because its really a lot of pressure for both genders...but i dunno...:)

hurm..another day

baileanorton — 2005-08-21T01:08:03-05:00

well its sunday and i gotta go to school tomarrow even though i really dont want to. way way way to much drama. some people live for it...i'd rather not but thats just me. anyhoot...i got asked out by this guy that i dont know. im not gonna go YEAH, YOU MAY BE AN AXE MURDERER BUT YEAH SURE!! naw im not like that. lol. i have had the WORST trubble with guys. they either cheat on me or take me for granted or both and i have gotten to the point where im just like yeah oooook then, its over. why cant i just pick a good one?!? gaw it doesnt seem possible

love

baileanorton — 2005-08-22T08:08:39-05:00

for once i wish i could love someone that would love me back. a person that would love everything about me. when i think that i have fallen it doesnt turn out. he either doesnt love me back or he just says he does just to make me some sort of trophy, some sort of prize to show off to his friends. why does this happen to me?

welp...

baileanorton — 2005-08-23T01:08:56-05:00

hey, im in computer ap. its fun...and easy for me.... anyways last night i was laughing untill i cried!!! hahaha. soo00oo funny! and Randy knows what i MeAn!!!lol :p

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baileanorton — 2005-08-24T08:08:17-05:00

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cough,cough

baileanorton — 2005-08-27T03:08:59-05:00

well angelika is over here! she might be moving in wiff me!! oMYwow! i can see it now, us running through the house like retards on crack! not like theres anything wrong with that, just our wild selves. i mean no one would know it if we ran through the house naked! o0o sounds like fun! im moving into my new house on monday which will be awesome because i cant wait to get the hell out of my rent house! we have to sleep on blow up beds (which is only fun to jump on) and lawn chairs as furniture. ;)!

cough,cough

baileanorton — 2005-08-27T03:08:02-05:00

well angelika is over here! she might be moving in wiff me!! oMYwow! i can see it now, us running through the house like retards on crack! not like theres anything wrong with that, just our wild selves. i mean no one would know it if we ran through the house naked! o0o sounds like fun! im moving into my new house on monday which will be awesome because i cant wait to get the hell out of my rent house! we have to sleep on blow up beds (which is only fun to jump on) and lawn chairs as furniture. ;)!

uhm...love?

baileanorton — 2005-08-28T02:08:25-05:00

how does a person tell if he/she is in love? i havent ever really been in love. everyone tells me that it is over rated but how can i know for sure if i havent ever been in that situation. what if i am now? what are the simptoms? i am proably the dumbest person for not understanding what the feeling is like when in love but you have to start somewhere...i guess

:.:.:.whats wrong with me.:.:.:

baileanorton — 2005-08-28T05:08:52-05:00

why am i so imperfect? why am i so out of place? why am i so werid to everyone? why doesnt anyone understand how i am? why am i stuck here? why cant i breathe? why is it so hard to believe why i am the way i am? why doesnt anyone exept me the way i am? why do i feel like im drowning? why does it seem like i am the only one who understands? why is everyone worried about me? why dont i trust people? why cant people see the sorrow in me? why do people expect me to be something im not? why doesnt anyone care for me? why am i the way i am?

I'm sORRY bUDDIES!!!!

baileanorton — 2005-08-29T01:08:35-05:00

heyGUYSwhatchaDOINguys?
welp im at school and im in computer ap. and everything....oh So0o much fun . i'm going to be very busy in the next few days so dont think that i forgooot about ya'll cause i didnt im just really busy (like i said before, and you werent listening....i mean reading).sorry to everybody for being so depressed and not fun lately im just kinda buckleing under pressure. i think i make other people depressed when im like that so i'll do that as little as humanly possible, i promise:)

WHOA!! (and the pants are comming down)

baileanorton — 2005-09-04T03:09:17-05:00

last night there was something in the air because everyone in my house was acting stupid! like angelika, she flashed me like twenty-five times(which was sooo hilarious). and i was being stupid and running around the house in my underwear.L0L it was rather funny.... i feel like crap so i think im going to take a shower and go to hastings. muchlove, bailea

happiness: a mental state of denial

baileanorton — 2005-09-07T01:09:45-05:00

so im at school, rather depressed and pissed off due to april. im not sure what happend exactly but apparently she got on my msn and was talking to someone and telling them all of these lies and stuff about me. and telling him that i dont love him and that he shouldnt love me. and she is mad at me? thats not right. i did absolutely nothing to her yet shes mad at me because she might have ruined everything.

Weekend Plans--------HO... SHIT, THE GIRLS HAVE GONE WILD--------

baileanorton — 2005-09-07T09:09:17-05:00

well i have to go to a dance on friday...which means im going to be wild and crazy with Angelika&Nicole&Johnna&Tara&Shelby&Taylor and all my hookers(lol not literally,inside joke). So we are all gonna "drop it like its hawt". no one thinks that i can dance and everything...but i really can i just dont do it all the time. so im gonna be like YEAH, YEAH, WHAT NOW?!?! so April and I are in a fight due to the fact that she just doesnt know when to quit messing with me about things that are VERY, EXTREMELY, important to me, and she knows that the things she says make me mad but i guess she likes making me mad. gursh, some people like their bitch fits, but i dont soo keep them FAR far away...:D gracis.

current events

baileanorton — 2005-09-09T06:09:35-05:00

well nicole and shelby are here with me and angelika and me and nicole want to go to the dance kinda and angelika and shelby dont and angelika is mad at me about something or another.and me and nicole are just chillin in my room waiting for someone to get on msn messanger...

who did i break this time.

baileanorton — 2005-09-11T01:09:25-05:00

everything around me is falling to pieces, is it me? did i do something wrong? i think my depression has caused everyone elses depression. i am so sorry for my mistakes if i had the chance to stand and take the blame, i would. if i had the chance to take all of your sorrows from you and add them to mine, i would. if i had the chance to make you happy i would. i wouldnt think twice about it. i am so sorry i pushed you away. just tell me how to fix it.

no subject

baileanorton — 2005-09-11T03:09:48-05:00

so i am currently sitting on my ass listening to guns n' roses and thinking about the dance battle comming up. ~NuRv0uS* its gonna be fun seeing the look on everyones face when they see what i have come up with this time. no one would have expected it from me....hahahaha..... angelika & i put this green shit on our face this morning that is supposed to help my complextion but right now it smells like ass and it burns so im taking it off... bye*

no subject

baileanorton — 2005-09-13T07:09:20-05:00

so i saw the team that we are battling's rutine this morning...and i have to say it sucked. if they dont have anything better than that, we're going to finals. we are having try-outs to add two more girls,maybe we can actually find someone that can move and not make our moves look soo chorigraphed and fake. (like the cheerleaders) i got asked to the homecomming game today..but i said no because 1.i have a boyfriend 2.the guy that asked me just wanted to get in my pants(i know this b/c he asked me if i wore a thong. 3.homecomming is gay. i am so tired of guys just looking at me and seeing just a piece of ass and not anything else. i mean its like they dont care if i can hold a conversation or have my own opinions. "What I have to say is far more important than how long my eyelashes are." -AlanaMorriset

Today Has Sucked

baileanorton — 2005-09-16T11:09:12-05:00

it was the homecoming game tonight..and i went like a dumbass. guys hanging all over me, preps as far as the eye can see, people crowding around (i am WaY clostrophbic), just shit like that. then today at school some guy thought that it would be okay if he grabbed my boob and my butt..which it wasent! so i was pissed, he acted like he didnt even care. i want to move so very much. why am i ALWAYS in this shit?

Spinning in Office Chairs.

baileanorton — 2005-09-17T10:09:08-05:00

so today is one of those days when i am retarded and hyper. angelika & i wanted to spray paint our hair like neon green or something and run through our school wraped up in caution tape but the teachers were like NO, YOU LOOK STUPID TAKE THAT CRAP OFF! i was being such a smart ass at school yesturday. i thought it was funny because i have the ability to make people second guess themselves, so my teachers were checking to make sure that they werent wrong. that is the funniest thing in the world! i almost got detetion though for being "opinionated".hahaha..i would hate to be a teacher and have me as a student.

Weather Channel Music

baileanorton — 2005-09-18T11:09:05-05:00

i ripped a nurve & a vein in my arm last night so thats why i went to sleep at like 9 something. i now can only type with one hand so its gonna be kinda s l o w. sorry guys! angelika was on my msn last night, that wasent me so if she was acting like me from 9 something-untill 12 something..it was her not me. on to other news. i am currently listening to weather channel music.. lol dont ask me why i just got the urge to watch the weather channel

another day to get through

baileanorton — 2005-09-21T01:09:03-05:00

Im SORRY EVERYONE!! i havent been able to talk to anyone on msn lately because i have been so busy with ballet ,choir, and the battles, and school, and parents. im not mad at anyone (i promise) im just so busy i dont even have time to breathe! but i gonna be online tonight so i will talk to yall then!
                                                ---bailea---

no subject

baileanorton — 2005-09-23T12:09:40-05:00

i think i am going to stop entrys into mindsay because 1. no one cares 2. it reminds me of someone that i dont want to be reminded of. farewell to those who care

okay so i lied

baileanorton — 2005-09-25T04:09:15-05:00

i think i am going to stay on mindsay simply because i want to add further to my tendonitis and nurve swelling.
so i am sitting here with my cuz Cortney. being my stupid self. thinking about stuff that i have caused. and thinking about this guy that i think is mad at me or something because i havent talked to him in forever.i should talk to him but when i do he doesnt really talk to me. i havent been on the computer in forever because of my illnesses. gaw i am a teenage old fart!

no subject

baileanorton — 2005-09-25T08:09:19-05:00

i do not believe anyone knows truely what peace is.

just a quick glimpse

baileanorton — 2005-09-25T10:09:44-05:00

WHY THE HELL DO I PUSH PEOPLE AWAY? WHY THE HELL DO PEOPLE TREAT ME LIKE I DONT KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT? WHY DO I PUT MYSELF IN THE SAME POSITION OVER AND OVER AGAIN?

it will be a miracle if i make it untill tomorrow

baileanorton — 2005-09-26T08:09:34-05:00

another rough day. its getting to be normal. my ex-exboyfriend and i are friends again. im glad he isent mad at me or there isent a grudge or anything. i know its good to just be friends and nothing serious. i know that there are four people that arent happy with me right now and i am sorry. i have been so busy lately i havent had time to hang out with you guys or talk to you guys. everything will be great when i get done with all of this battle, health situations, and school craziness.

I Am Inconsistantly Inconsistant

baileanorton — 2005-09-28T06:09:00-05:00

here are some questions for you all. leave comments to answer....

1. Have we kissed?:
2. Do you want to?:
3. Are we close friends?:
4. Would you be here if I needed you?:
5. Are you attracted to me?:
6. Mentally, sexually, or both?:
What do you think about my-
7. Face?:
8. Eyes?:
9. Lips?:
10. Body?:
12. Clothes?:
14. Hair?:
Do think I'm-
15. Sexy?:
16. Beautiful?:
17. Hot?:
18. Cute?:
Personality
Do you think I'm-
19. Crazy?:
20. Nice?:
21. Fun to be around?:
22. Funny?:
23. Annoying?:
Would you..
24. Spend a weekend with me?:
25. Hook up with me?:
26. Make out with me?:
27. Care if I ran away?:
28. Care if I died?:
29. Hang out with me?:
What would you do if..
30. I kissed you?:
31. You found out I was missing?:
32. You found out I was in the hospital?:
33. You found out I was dead?:
34. I told you I loved you?:
35. I told you I hated you?:
36. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
37. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:
In the last week have you..
38. Wanted to kiss me?:
39. Wanted to see me?:
40. Wanted to pounce on me?:
41. Wanted to spend alone time with me? *wink*:
42. Thought about me?:
43. Missed me?:
44. Wanted me?:
45. Kissed me?:
Have I..
46. Kissed you?
47. Hugged you?
48. Made you happy?:
49. Made you sad?:
50. Made you angry?:
51. Made you feel better if you were upset?:
Are you..
52. Happy you know me?:
53. Wanting to tell me something but you can't?:
54. Going to post this in so I can fill yours out?:
55. do i cross ur mind at least 1 time each day?
56. Me n u wat is our relationship as of RIGHT NOW?

Rejects In A Society Of Barbies

baileanorton — 2005-09-28T09:09:17-05:00

just another glourious day. me being the reject/smart ass that i am only made my situtation worse. so i now have this slight twitch thing going on from time to time and my teachers are all like STOP YOU ARE DISTURBING THE OTHER KIDS DAMN IT!!! me:well its not my fault i have a twitch, it just happens. teacher: CONTROL YOUR DAMN TWITCH BEFORE I GIVE YOU DETENTION! me: uhm right.... so later that day i go to language arts..gee what fun...i honestly think the teacher is a literate..she hates me with a passion and i can see why..i am such a smart ass and im not afraid to argue which is a teachers worst nightmare. like if i saw one of my teachers at wallmart or something i would be like HEY!! and they would take off running... SO SORRY FOR YOU IF YOU ARE ONE OF MY TEACHERS :D

another day to feel like shit b/c i am single thank you effin hallmark

baileanorton — 2005-09-29T10:09:12-05:00

dont you just hate it when people cant seem to talk about anything except their boyfriends/girlfriends?

no subject

baileanorton — 2005-10-02T12:10:37-05:00

so i feel bad today. i put people in misery and i dont mean to. some people, the people i care for the most, cant even talk to me now without remembering all the things that happend and all the things i said. i am so very sorry. i will understand if you cant forgive me.

once again..its my fault

baileanorton — 2005-10-03T01:10:28-05:00

it is yet again my fault for someones unhappiness. i know 'someone' hates me now. i do not blame them. i would hate me to. i still care for 'someone'. i doubt i can fix this. i know that sorry doesnt help but i am sorry for everything.

new stuff

baileanorton — 2005-10-04T01:10:42-05:00

i am currently going out with Dalton...i think we are going to the movies this weekend..going to a concert on saturday. hangin with shelby,angelika,&wes on sunday. sooo no party at my house this weekend! unless you want to party alone...not really...if you go to my house my cocker spainal will attack! lol bye loves...
                     bAILEAaLYSE*

iHEARTdalton,an...

baileanorton — 2005-10-07T11:10:17-05:00

we just got back from the movies..it was soo much fun. i think were gonna meet dalton&dakota at wallmart or something tomorrow. we went to see flightplan and it was good for the most part that i saw....i didnt really see much of the movie i was rather busy ;). bAiLEAaLYSE*& aNGELiKAlEE*

were gonna call the "boys"

baileanorton — 2005-10-08T09:10:00-05:00

we are planning on going to the movies again tomorrow with the guys and i think its going to be more serious then it was yesterday because this is our second date and the second date is always more serious then the first date like the third date is always more serious then the second. i think we are going to go see the exercisum of Emily Rose. then i think it would be awesome due to the fact that its a scarey movie and we are with our boyfriends in a dark movie theater. last time me and dalton didnt do anything exept hug..and him licking my arm but gaw..i would like to do more than that. and i think angelika would like to do more with dakota because they only hugged and held hands..which im sure isent as much fun as kissing. haha dont lie you all know you like kissing..it makes things interesting!
                                                        bAiLEAaLYSE*

tired

baileanorton — 2005-10-09T01:10:35-05:00

i stayed up untill three thirty last night on the phone with dalton. from like two thirty untill three thirty he was like "your like really tired i can tell so why dont you just go to sleep. do you want to get off the phone now?" and i was like nope not tired at all. even though i was tired and i was half way asleep when i told him that i wasent tired. oh well i like our phone conversations. --bAiLEAaLYSE*

weekend plans

baileanorton — 2005-10-11T07:10:53-05:00

angelika,dalton,dakota,and me might be going up to oklahoma for a haunted train ride thingy this weekend. gaw that would be so much fun. then on friday my friend is having a party and we are all intived and i guess this will sort of be like a second date i guess..i dunno. i hope its like another date beacuse dates are fun to me. welp later
                                                    bAiLEAaLYSE*

no subject

baileanorton — 2005-10-12T12:10:48-05:00

my friends party is this weekend and me and angelika are planning on going. i think dalton and dakota are going too.i have to go and get my hair cut before i go. so my hair should be all purty! she said that we couldnt kiss them or anything like that because her mom was going to be there.when she told me i was like NOO that is so not fair. but oh well we are probably going to oklahoma saturday or to the movies or something like that. there are going to be so many people at my house on halloween..its going to be wild. taylor,dakota,dalton,nicole,and a few other people are going to come and hang out and be stupid together. me and taylor are friends again but we need to hang out more because we havent like really hung out since sixth grade.
angelika is getting transfered into honor choir because she thinks that she cant sing but she can and she knows it. shes just upset from allregion tryout that were on saturday. i hope she dosent think that giving up is going to help anything.
everyone is going through such a hard time right now. i wish i could help but i dont see how i can. i've been trying to help people through their depression but i dont think that i am of any help. it seems like the world is about to go crashing to a stop or like its the ending days or something of that nature. i know he things that i have i do not desirve. i am ever so grateful that i have them but i am not worthly of my friends, of dalton, of anything. i hope everything gets better for everyone. i hope all it takes is time but what if time only worsens the situation? i guess i need to have faith

no subject

baileanorton — 2005-10-16T11:10:42-05:00

Dalton came over friday. that was fun but he left at like eight something for kadie's party. i didnt get to go. but oh well ,him comming over was worth not being able to go to the party. he was trying on my clothes and stuff...it was so funny , i laughed untill i cried.
well i gotta go babysit..oh what fun..so i'll write more later..
----bAiLEAaLYSE*----

I am Not Well

baileanorton — 2005-10-18T07:10:55-05:00

so im sick. i didnt go to school today. i feel like shit.

i am sorry for all of you who i have not been talking to. there are some people that i care for a lot yet i havent talked to them in a long time, so long that im not even part of their lives anymore. i am just a person to them..not someone that they care for. that makes me feel like the worst person on earth. for those of you who i have not talked to, i am sorry.

war issues

baileanorton — 2005-10-19T01:10:24-05:00

so people are still debating about the whole war issue.my opinion is that the war couldnt have been prevented simply because of saddam hussein. i dont not agree ,however, with killing innocent people, but Saddam Hussein was doing that in his own counrty before the war even started. so its not the presidents fault..not at all because he is not the one who declaires war in the first place. if some people would have paid more attention in their history classes they would know that. i am just about sick of this whole its Bush's fault. its not. i have family over there fighting too, but just to blame someone for a whole group of peoples action which bush had practicly nothing to do with is just wrong. it doesnt help to blame just one person. its more that one person's fault. war was bound to happen. yet, like i said before i do not agree whatsoever with the killing innocent people. and another thing..what about the people trying to take peoples guns away. i totally disagree with that. not everyone buys a gun to go shoot someone with. i know my family buys guns for protection and hunting. people like rosie o'donnel who disagree with guns , yet its okay for her gaurd to have one. thats just retarded. people dont use their brain.

us girls, being us girls

baileanorton — 2005-10-21T04:10:26-05:00

sam is comming over here and angelika,sam,and i are going to the movies. hopefully dalton will be there. he said that he might not be able to go but i think he is just saying that. so me ,angelika, and sam are going to be stupid and krazie like always. but theres this chick named nicole and shes being all nosie and rude and thinking that i have to tell her everything that happens in my life, but i dont and im tired of people telling me that they know everything about me when they dont..im the only one that knows everything about me so there!

IN DESPERATE NEED OF ADVICE!!!

baileanorton — 2005-10-22T05:10:00-05:00

okay so yesturday while my boyfriend was on the bus there was this girl that kissed him (on the lips) three times. he said that he got away from her but if he did then how could it have happend three times? he told me this hisself before anyone else could and that meant a lot but it broke my heart anyway. to top it all off he went to the state fair with her today. he diched me last night to hang out with his friend. things are just slowly falling apart. i love him so much yet the things he does to me, he doesnt realize it hurts me. i asked him if it was me and my exboyfriend or someone came up to me and just kissed me three times if he would be mad and he said not if i slapped the shit out of them. i told him that i was gonna go to the movies last night with my friends and he got mad because he thought i was gonna go with some guy. yet its okay for him to go to the state fair with some girl that kissed him three times? thats not right. i am in need of advice.. please...what would you do if you were in my situation?

all the small things...

baileanorton — 2005-10-25T08:10:18-05:00

so me and dalton actually broke up for like a whole 30 minutes. then we got back together and things are perfect. ever since we broke up i think we realized what it would be like without each other and now we have so much fun together and act stupid..things are great.i almost kissed him today. i think he knew but i didnt because angelika's mom came and ate lunch with her so i kinda couldnt. i probably will tomorrow. her mom embarrassed the hell out of me. she was asking dalton all of these questions like do you plan on having sex anytime soon and he was just laughing and he said no very quietly. she was like boy your a liar.lol my face was bright pink.i think im going to start acting more like we go out. i love him but i dont think he knows it so maybe i need to show him. i think im going to before the one chick that likes him does. she needs to back off. im gonna do it..im gonna kiss him. i doubt he'll mind. lol

place your hand in mine, i'll leave when i wanna

baileanorton — 2005-10-26T06:10:14-05:00

welp.. things are screwy again. i keep getting caught up in shit that i dont need to be in. i cant wait until i can get as far away from this shitty little town in texas. anyways, who has msn messanger?

hey

baileanorton — 2005-10-27T01:10:39-05:00

hey, im sitting here being bored in computer ap..like always. SOMEONE PLEASE GET ON MSN!!

current events

baileanorton — 2005-10-29T11:10:30-05:00

i am curently talking to my ex-boyfriend on the computer. he is asking me why i broke up with him. meanwhile, i got asked out three times. things are just really weird

no subject

baileanorton — 2005-10-30T09:10:59-05:00

so much happend last night. shelby came over and we hung out. she says things that are so rude and i dont think she realizes that its rude. angelika was getting ready and shelby goes you look like a whore. then shelby kept on telling me to call some guys to come over..and i didnt want to and i told her that and she was like well whatever,bailea, your just selfish. i am like one of the least selfish people shes ever met. then i got on msn and i got asked out twice and then once before that. the guys that asked me out are two of my exboyfriends and one of my guy friends. i havent answered any of them but i think i am going to say no because the only reason they want to go out with me is because i will help their "social status". thats such horse shit. either that you they only wanna go out with me because of the way i look. with is also horse shit. most guys just want a girlfriend so they will have something to talk about in the lockeroom.

happy halloween

baileanorton — 2005-10-31T01:10:31-05:00

happy halloween, yall! i fricken love halloween because its like the one night of the year that i am normal..lol
anyways..i am at school in computer ap. and it is soooo boring. school in general is boring..but its worse when you dont have anything to do.

one bad day...

baileanorton — 2005-11-01T10:11:20-05:00

i just found out that my boyfriend has been cheating on me since friday. im sick of his shit. im sick of being lied to. and im sick of people telling me that they love me and care for me when they couldnt give a shit less. apparently he has been cheating on me with two girls. i can only prove that he went out with one of them. i only heard about the second one. i dont need his shit. i guess he thinks that i am desperate..but guess what...im not. when i broke up with him the last time i got asked out four times. i am so stupid. but ya know the good thing about breaking up is that you find someone else that you cant get enough of.

nervousness

baileanorton — 2005-11-02T01:11:13-05:00

there is a BIG dance compition in a few weeks and i am soo very nervous! our choreography is awesome but im just thinking to myself that there is going to be a flaw in it somewhere. there just this feeling in the bottom of my stomach telling me that something is going to go wrong. hopefully its just nerves.

bored at school

baileanorton — 2005-11-03T12:11:47-05:00

so i am at school in computer ap. being bored beyond belief. cant wait until the football game tonight. it was so funny earlier, me and dalton were standing by each other and someone came up to me and they were like you do rele like him do you? and i said yes, i do and i grabbed him by his shirt collar and started making out with him. lol just kidding that hasent happend yet. that was just something i thought about. i RELE want to though. he told my sister last night that he wanted to kiss me so bad. and i think she told him that i wanted to also but i dont know why he hasent yet. shelby told me that he was scared to and that he wanted me to kiss him. i just havent found the perfect timing yet. i rele want to though..i probably will today or tomorrow sometime because we are supposed to go to the movies. or tonight at the football game. (now can you see why i am so excited to go to the game?)lol;)

i havent ever had anyone love me like you

baileanorton — 2005-11-03T10:11:56-05:00

so me and "my man" are going to the movies tomorrow to go see the longest movie there. i went to go see him play football a little while ago and he looked HAWT in his jersey..i guess i am a sucker for a guy in uniform!lol..but like while we are at the movies im not sure what i should do..i mean like if i should kiss him first or should i let him kiss me first? like i am ReALLY bad about reading signals! yall I REALLY NEED SOME ADVICE! especially guys..what would you want if you were in that kind of perdicament? PlEaSe HeLp mE!

things that bare repeating

baileanorton — 2005-11-06T10:11:21-05:00

me and dalton went to the movies friday night. we had fun. we had so many chances to kiss and everything but we didnt. i was mad at myself like all night. but its okay because he is sweet and he said that he wanted to wait until the perfect moment and all.
me and shelby went shopping saturday. i spent more money then i should have.but that was pretty much my weekend..sorry i didnt have more fun but yeah

hey-newest things

baileanorton — 2005-11-07T10:11:01-05:00

angelika moved out today. we got into a bad fight because she got mad at me because she said that i always took my boyfriends side over hers. i told her that i didnt think i did. i think i usually take her side. she just wanted to move out and no matter what she says i know thats why she started that. i hate fights. it would have happened if my boyfriend was involved or not. she would have found something to start a fight over. she was always holding something over my head. like blackmail. i hated living like that. i was always worried that she would try to do something to ruin my life. i hate to say it but when she left it was like a strain was lifted.
school is so hectic. i cant seem to get anything right. everything is going down hill. me and dalton broke up because of everything. i hope she sleeps well at night knowing that she ruined everything for me

let me explain myself

baileanorton — 2005-11-08T01:11:30-05:00

me and dalton still love each other. we just arent going to be together for a while. until i find myself again. the truth is im already okay again. he would be better off with someone other than me. i love him to death but i have to let him go. someone once said if you love someone you keep their best interests in mind and let them go. i understand that but it was hard. i cried myself to sleep last night and didnt go to school today because i think i would have snapped.i guess if dalton comes back to me then it was supposed to happen but if he doesnt i will still love him no matter what. right now its up to him. i just need him around. even if i just have to have him as a friend.
that you people that have helped me & supported me through my depression...( you know who you all are). i know it isent easy to deal with me while i am upset. thank you for your love! your awesome!

taking a break

baileanorton — 2005-11-10T01:11:39-05:00

so me and dalton are "taking a break" due to stress from other people. he just needs some time to pick up the pieces. i think i do too. there is just to much going on. i havent talked to him since tuesday and im worried about him. i need to talk to him about some things. david asked me out again and i said no because im not sure where me and dalton stand at this point. i still love him very much but im not sure how he feels about me. i think he loves me but i dont think that he knows what he wants. there are a few girls that like him and they have told me that they do but im not really worried about that because i know that he loves me and i know that i love him. he is just under a lot of stress and i understand that and i am trying to support him. its just hard because everytime we take a step forward , we end up taking two steps back and puting us back in the same postion that we were in before. we have now broken up three times. he is really sick right now. he hasent been to school since tuesday and thats why i am so worried about him because even if he is sick he will still talk to me. he is also moving into a new house. aww poor thing. hes probably stressed out.

wow

baileanorton — 2005-11-13T12:11:44-05:00

guys are so confusing! have anyone ever noticed that. they tell us (girls) that we are confusing and i guess we are but guys are just way to complicated. personally i think some guys have a problem with going out with some girls because they are afraid that their friends will disapprove. isent that the dumbest shit you've ever heard? or just go out with a girl because of how sexy it will make them seem to other girls. i think that is stupid. you should wanna go out with someone because you like them and you wanna be with them. other people shouldnt matter. you shouldnt have to check with your friends first before you can ask a girl out. and its not just guys..some girls , believe it or not, do the same. personally i dont think it matters what your friends say but thats just me. everyone has their own opinion but i just think that its wrong for a guy to go up to a girl and be like your hot, lets go out. and some girls fall for that shit. well girls out there if you're like that..you are retarded. im sorry but the truth hurts. if your gonna marry a guy just because he said that you were hot then your just fucking stupid because in fourty years you arent going to be hot. im sorry but its just not gonna happen. if you think that it will then you are a trubbled soul. some people reading this are going to be like no one can be that stupid but if im lying in dying!

eww..ok, no!

baileanorton — 2005-11-13T01:11:58-05:00

im sorry but gays being married is just not right..okay? it says in the Bible thats wrong ,W-R-O-N-G! dude i mean pretty soon people are going to want to start marrying their dogs and shit. i can see it now someone saying on yeah me and my dog sparky are getting married next year..if someone ever said that to me i would die laughing. even if they were serious. eww..sick. your fricken pets are your fricken pets not your husbans/wifes ok? and i doubt that your pet would wanna marry you...you sicko's

new stuff-not very interesting..so...

baileanorton — 2005-11-15T06:11:29-05:00

i am currently sitting here being so fricken cold. i havent talked to dalton since sunday.. he doesnt really act like he cares anymore. no one does. everyone has pretty much turn their backs on me

humm...

baileanorton — 2005-11-16T01:11:54-05:00

i missed school today. i have decided to become independent. not that i wasent before, i just trusted people to much. i dont want to be cold hearted but everytime i think i can trust people , they end up doing something to hurt me. i dont even think that they know they hurt me. im really good at hiding it from people, and myself. i just thought for a second, maybe there is actually someone who cares for me. apparently i was decived.

i am much better now

baileanorton — 2005-11-20T09:11:40-05:00

things are better today other than the fact that i am sick. i feel like shit but in other ways i am perfect. as you can tell im not really depressed anymore. things with me and dalton are better now i think...i hope. he was hanging out with spencer (one of his buddies) and dalton was getting jealous because spencer was flirting with me like crazy! so out of no where dalton goes who do you love more me or spencer and i was like you and he goes i love you. so things are good for now

hello again

baileanorton — 2005-11-26T06:11:28-05:00

i am back from tennessee. i got back about three hours ago. it was fun i guess. i havent seen hardly anyone yet. i am very tired and i have dance practice...that i am late for..i'll write more later

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baileanorton — 2005-11-27T02:11:45-05:00

so there is this guy and he kind of has my heart but i dont want him to know that because everytime before when i told someone i loved them then they would take it for granted. i hate that. i hate the way he always makes me laugh when something really isent that funny, or the way the looks at me when he thinks that i am not listening, or how i cant tell him how i feel about him, or the way he flirts with everyone, but mostly i hate the fact that i am head-over-heels for someone. but i love him. thats makes no sence to me but then again maybe it isent supposed to.

i EFFiN HATE JUNiOR HiGH!

baileanorton — 2005-12-01T09:12:59-05:00

okay so there is this chick and shes the biggest asshole i have ever met. so i go to school and i hear that the day before she was trying to makeout with my boyfriend ( i have two eyewitnesses). i was so mad when i found out. it broke my heart because not two weeks before this happened (which it happened yesturday) all of her friends turned their backs on her because she made out with this girl and she was all alone so my friends and i went and sat with her and be-friended her and this is what i effin get? that is so messed up. but then today me and dalton(my boyfriend) and we were talking in the hall before 7th period and she just comes up and kisses him and i looked at her like "oh my gosh you effin hoe"! so i went into class and slamed my stuff down and went looking for her. if i would have found her then it would have been a mess but she needs to stop because thats not right because if i would have done something like that to her or one of her bitchy little friends then she would have gotten up in my face. i think that they just want to start something because they dont have anything better to do.

Can i Be Your Memory?

baileanorton — 2005-12-05T08:12:15-05:00

loosing my sence of fear. can i be your anything?

my heart is beating faster. can i be your memory?

i never imagined things could be this way.

i still love you anyway.

so give me a reason to end this discussion.

when we could just run forever.

because im getting better at fighting the future.

so that was a brief summary of the thoughts that are racing through my wondering mind.

::KiSSmeLiKElov...

baileanorton — 2005-12-11T02:12:37-05:00

i just want that perfect moment that you see in the movies. does that ever happen outside of hollywood?

::thereJUSTsome...

baileanorton — 2005-12-12T12:12:54-05:00

there is something about the way that you look at me. theres something about the way you stay up on the phone with me until the sun comes up. the way you want me to tell you that i love you. im not sure what it is but there is just something about you that makes my world alright. i hate the way you make me mad at you on purpose, then i love the way you make up for it. i hate your sarcasum when i am trying to be serious, then i love the way when everything is going wrong you tell me that you love me. i cant quite figure you out, but i like it.

Christmas Break

baileanorton — 2005-12-16T02:12:10-05:00

well its finally Christmas break and im not as happy as i thought i was going to be. i am going to miss Dalton so much. hes gonna be in Austin and im not going to get to talk to him very much. it sucks. i was hoping that he wouldnt go anywhere over Christmas break so we could be together but we cant. i hate that. then again i am happy for other reasons like i am going to be with my family and things like that. i guess it wont be that bad if i can still talk to him on the phone sometimes. when we get back to school i am going to run up to him and give him the biggest hug he has ever gotten and kiss him over and over. im sure he will like that

it hasent been the best day

baileanorton — 2005-12-20T04:12:27-05:00

i am so tired. i went shopping with a friend all day yesturday and we got back to her house at about twelve and once i got there i passed out. then at about six this morning her dog woke me up and she was already awake so i got up even though i wanted to sleep oh so very much longer. i think that i have a cold. my head hurts but that could be caused from lack of sleep so im not just to sure. i havent talked to dalton since the eighteenth. which seems like forever to me. i am sore from working out. but other than that things are great.

hEYY! ::KiSSES::

baileanorton — 2005-12-21T04:12:45-05:00

hey everyone. i just thought that i would give everyone an update..well danielle (one of my best friends from my old school) & cortney (my cousin that is here for Christmas) are here and we are just hanging out and being crazy like normal..lol! but anyways i still havent talked to dalton. sometimes it seems like he doesnt care. i hate it when he does that. oh well maybe he is busy. i know i have been. i have made so many website layouts in the pass few days its just unreal. im pretty tired but its all good. oh yeah before i forget about it..do you think that its bad to give a guy ,that isent your boyfriend, your cell phone number? i dont really think so if your just friends with him but i dunno what a guy would think..help me out here,,please!

guys can be so confusing

baileanorton — 2005-12-23T11:12:46-05:00

sometimes i wonder what goes on in a guys mind. its like they are bipolar or something. for example..i was talking to my boyfriend on the phone a while ago and i told him that there was a party last night and that i didnt go because i knew that it would have made him mad and he asked me why and i told him because some of my ex-boyfriends were going to be there and i didnt wanna do anything stupid that could have messed up our relationship. and he was like well i wouldnt have cared if you went.. and i knew that he woud have cared...he would have been furious with me and i know that he would because i know him. he tells me i only would have cared if you did something. and i was like well duh thats the whole point of why i didnt go. then later after we had gotten over that discution he brought it back up after he told me that he didnt want to talk about it. hummmm....

MerryChristmasL...

baileanorton — 2005-12-24T07:12:38-05:00

hey everyone!...Merry Christmas! :D

hard to tell

baileanorton — 2005-12-26T11:12:49-05:00

have you ever wondered if you were with someone that maybe wasent right for you? i have that feeling all the time. and when you think that the person that you are with doesnt love you. i think thhat like all the time. i havent found the perfect person yet but im hoping that i do soon. i cant just keep waiting on someone to stop fooling around and be my only one. it is so hard to just take all this crap that someone ,that says they love you, is dishing out. maybe i stay with him because i am dumb enough to believe the things that he says. and that i believe his lies. if he really loved me then you would think that he would tell you sometimes. at least one time a day. he wants me to tell him that i love him but it is so hard when you say it and you dont hear one back. for once i would like for one guy to prove to me that they arent all the same

most recent thoughts.

baileanorton — 2005-12-28T04:12:15-05:00

i am so broken up inside. my eyes burn from these tears. will anything ever get better? i thought that i loved him but it is so hard to love someone that doesnt love you back. here i am just sitting here looking at all of our pictures, thinking about how i could have been so stupid. there is a saying that goes "what goes around comes around". but i dont ever remember myself breaking someones heart. yet it seems to happen to me ever so often. maybe if i stay in one place ,never moving forward, there would never be a past and i wouldnt ever get hurt. after a while i guess you have to decide which ones are worth the pain. here i am waiting for the phone to ring and hear your voice. maybe i am just one of those people that cant be in relationships. just a lone wolf. i feel this way most of the time. i begin to wonder if the world would notice had i not been around. would i be missed? or would it just be an empty seat?

hEYYeVERY0NE!

baileanorton — 2005-12-29T07:12:22-05:00

gUESSwHAT?!?!?

iM g0NNA bE iN A miSS.j0UNi0R TEXAS cOMPITION!

YEaH!(HOPFULLY i'LL WiN) :D

wOOOh000*

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baileanorton — 2005-12-31T06:12:09-05:00

so this is what i am wearing for the compition

1)the swimsuit

http://www.instyleswimwear.com/product.asp?product_id=420&shop_by_cont_shop=twopiece%2Easp

2) the dress--- http://cgi.ebay.com/NATIONAL-PAGEANT-DRESS-DRESSES-GOWN-NW-12-BLACK-56_W0QQitemZ5456860040QQcategoryZ3061QQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem#ebayphotohosting

                   tell me if you like them*!

    ---bAiLEAaLYSE*

heavy-hearted

baileanorton — 2006-01-03T05:01:30-05:00

i am baptised by the fire in your touch and the flame in your eyes. i have done the dumbest thing i can think of...i broke my own heart. i got rid of you thinking things would get better ; it made life worse. i can think of any reason why you would take me back. maybe i am better off on my own. but boy how my heart is heavy. i feel the sadness rush into me like wind thorugh an opened window. there are so may things that i want to say to you but i just cant. its to hard to tell you that you are my one and only and after my moment of idioicy things will have to stay as i made them.

personal unacceptance

baileanorton — 2006-01-10T07:01:16-05:00

i havent wrote in a while. things have been really hard for me lately. my cousin died, i found out that i have medical problems that are in a way fatal, and of course everything at school. i have fallen down and i cant seem to get back up, i have broken up and i cant put the pieces back togther. here i sit in the dark thinking. will this be my last entry? will i ever get back up on my feet? will things ever be like they used to? will i ever be happy?

at-FRICKEN-last

baileanorton — 2006-01-14T02:01:04-05:00

things have picked up some since the last entry. i am currently oh so very in love..and it feels wonderful. i just love the way he looks at me, the way that he is goofy, the list goes on and on. i guess you'd say i was happy, FiNALLY!

hmm wow

baileanorton — 2006-01-19T07:01:31-05:00

wow its amazing how fast things can change. have you ever felt like you try so hard and get no where? like you get one step forward to get knocked 3 steps back?

lAST niGHT wAS fRiCKEN aWES0ME*

baileanorton — 2006-01-21T07:01:11-05:00

so i went to the movies last night with shelby, dalton, ali, and paige and it was like the best night ever! me and dalton were sitting there holding hands and getting close. it was so great. we were kissing and everything was perfect. it was the first time we kissed. wow i cant get over it! i love him so much.

latest problems

baileanorton — 2006-01-28T01:01:26-05:00

so me and dalton broke up. he asked another girl out. i was devestated. he gets online yesturday and asked me if i was mad at him, i told him that i wasent.he then calls me and tells me that his friend broke us up and that his friend told him that i said i hated him and never wanted to talk to him again. his friend told me that he said the same thing about me. so that night he asked this girl out because he thought that i hated him and all that stuff. so they started going out and he told me that he loved me and was sorry about everything that happened and i mean he was in tears over the phone just crying. he said that he gave this girl a chance and he hated being with her and all of this stuff. so he breaks up with her because i told him to do whatever makes his happy and he said that if he was with me then that would make him happy. taylor's(the girl that he broke up with) best friend gets online and starts cussing me out. she said that i was the one that broke them up and thats not true. she also said that the only reason dalton said that he loved me was because he thought i was going to kill myself which is pretty stupid. he denies ever telling her that. so now everything is just one big ole mess and i dont know what to do about it. please help me out here.

wow

baileanorton — 2006-01-31T09:01:42-05:00

i am so sick to my stomach right now. i keep on seeing dalton with that girl and it just makes me ill. i havent ever had that effect from a guy before but i do now and i am wondering what that means. i just cant stand that fact that he is an asshole and i love him. he was cussing me out over the computer sunday night and he was like i hate you bailea. and that just killed me. i have gotten over most of the nightmares but still it hurts me. i know that he is making a mistake but if he ever decides to come back to me then i have to tell him that he cant have my love anymore because of what he did. i gave him chance after chance but he refused them all. i have the feeling that something is going to happen to his relationship like he will grow tired of her or something and expect me to be there waiting for him like i will take him back after all the crap he pulled and after all the lies he told. i am just so sick.

on the other news... i am a state finalist in the jr. teen texas compitition! i am trying out for one of the leading roles in the new play Chicago ERR at my school. i am also trying out for cheerleader for next year! yall wish me luck with it all.

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baileanorton — 2006-02-07T07:02:42-05:00

here she stands today. almost ready to smile. fully alive with this feeling. let me live without this empty bliss

yO*

baileanorton — 2006-06-14T07:06:30-05:00

heyykids,,

i havent written on here in a really long time. but i do write on xanga like abunch & its www.xanga.com/bailea10

thank ya much,,

..baileaalysenorton*

~~iL0VEdaltonmilligan!--ten months baby~~

new things..

baileanorton — 2006-09-16T05:09:21-05:00

heyy..

well me and asshole ((dalton)) broke up again. gaww that kid pisses me off. anyways im falling for someone else! he is awesome! i am a fr-fr-fr-FRESHMAN! yayuh. welp holler

<3 bailea